#569: Amida: Es Tzemach Dovid (Part 9)

s Ser respons by the Saka family and as well by for we're on the 15th of the and we've been examining the final phrase of the we mentioned quotes from the that it is having kavana being Mindful and intentional thinking about these words when we say them which will enable us to answer in the affirmative chabas tells us after 120 when we come upstairs the series of questions will asked the fourth one isua did we long for the Gul for the Redemption were we satisfied and happy with the way life is do we realize we're in a broken world and we want it to be better and what will determine whether we can answer that question or not it is our kavana in these words that we long hasem for your salvation all day long and we saw that whatever a person's personal challenges par health whatever certainly collectively our people our brothers and sisters in Israel the hostages nothing is beyond you you could bring the Redemption the Salvation in a harpy in his the wonders why is the question to peace to the Yeshua why is the question did we long for Yeshua salvation if in fact salvation is synonymous with Mia so why wasn't the question why won't the question be after a long time hopefully mashia did you long for the miach did you long for the Messiah soab says because if the question were masiah then we might make the mistake of thinking that who brings the Salvation who transforms the world who repairs and redeems the world Messiah but a a Jew needs to know the Messiah is an agent of Hashem the Messiah of course while great while we long for him and while we DAV for his arrival he's all part of a divine plan of the eschatological era of the Osa mashia of the time of gula that who is the one who ushers it in who is the one who transforms it who's the one who has a bigger plan it's Theon every day we realize more and more how little we control how little we can predict how little we're in charge of and how in trouble the world is every day Hashem is running a world in which we almost can't help but surrender to him and say you must have some master plan because every day it's more and more concerning at best depressing at worst he has some master plan see Pisa what we long for is Yeshua that somehow he's going to make make it all make sense who he put where when who's successful who's up Who's down how what the news is that day not from mhia the individual but mashiah is just part of the plan of Hashem really it's leua our longing is for Hashem we mentioned the other day in the sitter asks a very interesting question because your salvation is what we long for all day that word key because for asks how does it help as you say in learning if we're worthy of messiah's arrival whether you hope for it or not we're worthy he should arrive if we're unworthy who cares that you hope for it why should he come if we're unworthy what's the argument we're making to Hashem key key because because I come to three times a day and I have kavana when I say these words so therefore okay how do you behave in between doing how do you behave when you go to work how do you behave in life when you're home how do you treat others Mia's arrival or not is what's the argument of of it's the of the I want to tell you two essentially diametrically opposed answers they're both true depends on the day and how you feel they're both true different levels of interpretation of the sitter answers he says the following he says even if we have the we're turning to the we're turning to we're saying we're not asking for mashia to come because we've earned it we're asking him to come key because we're ringly even though technically you're right we've earned it we can make the argument we're deserving we've earned it we can make the argument it's coming to us but that's not why we're asking for it we want the relationship with you we want to surrender to you we realize in the end of the day it's you even if we have this even if we've earned it it's because of your of your Redemptive power it's because of our longing to connect with you that's why we want it but the himself gives a different answer the says something outstanding it'll change the way that you think about this this in these words every time you say them says the the says even if we're unworthy we're asking you know what we're utterly unworthy you know what I want not a bigger house and a nicer car or maybe I want those things too but I realize that they're fleeting and they're insignificant and in my hierarchy and my priority of wants they're low down you know what I hope for and I long for and I root for it's not some sports team and it's not the stock market and it's not my material possession what I want what I long for what I hope for what I think about all the time what I'm consumed by is and even I'm more unworthy even if we've proven unworthy we're not getting it right we're making mistakes but key simply on account of who I am in my identity who I am in my character who I am and how I see myself that my life revolves around my longing my yearning my desire for things to be different for this world to be repaired and redeemed to finally be whole I want I want I want that's what I want and that's what we say in the words the what's the next word he should save us why because if that's our hope our hope is not in some person don't worship don't you may have a candidate you think is better worse aligned with your your uh aligned with what you care about about in the end of the day they're flesh and blood and they're puppets of Hashem Hashem I'll Advocate I'll vote my duty whatever I think but I realize I don't bow down I don't surrender to I certainly don't deify any human being it's really you on that day when all we have when all we have when our Ledger is empty when the spreadsheet shows that we've heard nothing when we're misbehaving disobedient and all we've got is Keo is hope all we have is Hope in you hasem that's the reward for the Keo is enough so says I find it to be a very powerful kav something to think about because it means I admit I'm unworthy I admit I come up short and I can't make the argument why you should be mhia because I'm worthy but I'll tell you what I can do I could make I could turn my my my is in you my hope is in you the Salvation is from you and by living and recognizing that that in itself should be worthy key that in itself should bring mhia