#546: Amida: Al Ha'Tzadikim (Part 15)

s snippet series is generously sponsored by the Saka family and by for allim finishing upim we last left off trying to understand we won't be embarrassed we won't be ashamed because hm we have faith we believe in you why do we think we'd be ashamed why in the world would be be embarrassed it's the proudest thing in the world have faith in to live with to live a life of to feel the presence of hem why in the world would a person be ashamed or embarrassed why do we have to say so we saw the said when it comes to human beings mere mortals when we take when we rely when we are the beneficiary of a handout we're ashamed we're embarrassed we carry that debt of gratitude but the fact that we put our in you and we're able to proudly walk around with our head held high and say you give me parasa you found me my you give me my children you provide all that I have there's no bu on that in fact that's there's a to say that we the children of there is an honor has a different interpretation and here it comes down to the we mention and put the comma in a different place is it put my portion with them for ever or or and forever let me not be embarrassed so if it's forever let me not be embarrassed says is when we leave this world when we get to the next World see there's very few things that are more embarrassing or humiliating or filled with shame that when a person comes to the next World and they're reunited with their loved ones and their ancestors and their predecessors and the Bas shamala and their image of who they were doesn't match the life that they LED if a person has many people have blind spots many people lack self-awareness rights then in the future people will be shocked because they consider themselves much more righteous than they are if you asked everyone to rate themselves everyone's pretty good see themselves as pretty good give ourselves the benefit of the doubt and when the reality when the when the video of Our Lives where we made mistakes where we came up short where we failed in and in applying a life of Faith to hem the reality will kick in that reality will set in so say that's the for perpetuity for eternity let me not be embarrassed and ashamed when I leave this world and when I confront my ancestors in the next World let me not be humiliated or embarrassed based on who I was and how I lived not based on aspirationally or who I think I am so is it referring to this world where do you put the comma is referring to the next World tell you a third the last and what does it mean from the girl had a son ra and in his commentary he says very beautifully the word L we assume the word NEOS means let me not be embarrassed but can also have another meaning says a capable wife is the crown for her husband but an incompetent one is means to delay to push off to delay the says b Moshe Moshe was delayed so the word b can mean embarrass could also mean to delay was delayed so therefore according to this what it means means that we should not be delayed we should not be delayed but we should practice a let me not be delayed or pushed off because our but we're left with the question question is what about this seems to fly in the face hasem is in control of everything Hashem his Providence control everything about our lives except for the main thing which is do we see him do we live with him person has in the words of the ra people have free will we have choice so we choose whether to live with or not is it as simple as asking you got two categories people live with and the people live without I don't want to do any hard work do me a favor put me with the people who have is that simple put me with the righteous put me with the people who don't speak put me with the people put me with the people who are honest and business put me with those who are scrupulous on chabas and KAS is that simple put my portion with those you got to do the work what do you mean can't askem consider me and put my portion with those who have have live with you don't need hem to put your portion with them so what's the daving seems to fly in the face of the whole institution of the notion of free will that we could turn to Hashem and say put my portion with them you put your portion with them that's why we have free will it's a good question no did any of you ever think about that when you said these words your entire life it's good you came today so you have till tomorrow to come up with an answer