50 Days Of Spiritual Elevation From Pesach To Shavuot

The type of matra is specifically for us to work on this. Why? We have 50 days between pes to shot. But we got the Torah on the 51st day. The mala says the reason why we got the Torah on the 51st day is because we needed to work on our midot on our bad character traits that cause us to forget God on our bad character traits that allow us to have the audacity to have an ego at all. On the bad character traits that make us think that it's our money, therefore we don't want to share it. When someone says, "Yo, you should donate." No, it's uh it's it's I worked hard for my money. or if you donate only if it's uh if you're going to put my name on the website, you put my name on the building, you put my name on the chandelier. You ever go to these synagogues, they have chandeliers, little chandeliers cost $500, $1,000, whatever they cost. And the plaque under it probably cost a hundred. Why? Listen, the guy donated the chandelier, he wants to make sure that for generation after generation, everyone knows that he's the one that donated the chandelier. It's the most absurd thing in the history of mankind. Shàuot is specifically to remove these things. Why? 50 days to fix yourself. Fix the 50 days to take out as much of it as you possibly can. Why? With an ego, you cannot receive Tawa on 51st. If you have an ego, you cannot receive the Torah on 51st. It's like any other day for you. If you haven't worked on yourself, you haven't prepared yourself. Maybe you can have a cheesecake to you can't get though. Cheesecake. You can have anybody. The dog can have cheesecake also. But to you're not going to get that's why people that ask me all the time, you know, how is it that some of these really smart people that learn Tawa and so on, they remember. They learn Tawa and they remember it and I learn and I don't remember it. How come? I said because they also work on their mid and they remove their ego. And your ego is growing as you learn. That's the problem. If your ego is growing every time you learn something new, that means you're learning for the wrong reason. So, first thing is to understand that the says we got the Torah on the 51st day because it gave us an opportunity to fix our midot for 50 days. Theim continue And the continues to say, not only is it an opportunity for us to fix our mid dur, but it also answers the very famous issue that we have during PES, which is that we always say, it would have been enough if you would have taken us out of Egypt and no more slavery. That would have already been enough good from you. You didn't owe us that kindness. You took us out from being slaves. No more slaves. That's already enough kindness. You didn't have to split the ocean for us. If you would have split the ocean for us, that would have been enough. You didn't have to bring us to Mount Sai. If you brought us to Mount Sai, that would have been enough. You didn't have to give us the Torah. If you give us dua, that would have been you. That was enough. You didn't have to give us. Meaning, we kept saying everything you did for us is really more than what we deserved generations before. I'm already all the that you given me, all of the kindness that you given me, Hashem is already too much for me. I don't deserve it. So we as a nation say on Pes everything you gave us is really more than what we deserve. But then the ask, wait a minute, you're saying it would have been enough for him to bring us to Mount Si and not give us the Torah. Then why do we go there? If we're going to go to Mount Si, it's to receive the Torah. So why would you say it would have been enough to go to Mount Si and take us out of Egypt and split the ocean for us and do all these things that he did and not give us the Torah? Isn't that the whole point to get the Torah? So the ask this extraordinary questions and answers this answers it. Why does it answer it? He says, "Listen, part of the that gave us is the ability to do chuva." So during this whole transition of no longer you know stopping from being slaves, going through the plagues, going through hardship during the plagues, before the plagues, after the plagues, having to make a choice between life and death pretty much when we had the to put the u of the uh um uh was it not the egg, the uh goat, which was the uh the uh Egyptian god putting that you had to that was pretty much life or death. Why? Because that was the Egyptian god. But Hashem says make it a koban. Make it into a uh what's it called? Barbecue with this. These are difficult choices we had to make. And then some people didn't want to leave Egypt. So Hashem killed them. And then we got to this sea of reeds. And then you have uh you know we don't know where to go. We didn't know we're supposed to go inside the ocean. People were scared. They're going to die now. Was difficult. All of this extra level of hardship helped us fix our midote. Why? Because you only second guessess yourself. When you go through hardship, there's only two ways to go to fix yourself. One, learn an enormous amount of Torah and question yourself along the way. Does this apply to me? Does this apply to me? Does this apply to me? Does this apply to me? How does this apply to me? It does apply to me. It always applies to me. How though? Once you learn Tawa the questions change in the beginning you ask yourself how does this even apply to me? Then it's it applies to me but how then is I can't believe all of this applies to me? Then it's I have to fix all of the stuff that applies to me. Then it's that Hashem gave me the insight to realize all of this applies to me. During chuva, your questions change. Same question changes form. All of the difficulties were a way for us to ask ourselves the same question. It was fast-paced cha fast-paced cha. Hashem says, "Listen, you don't have the Torah, so you're not asking the right questions. So now I'm going to fast your cha. You go through major hardship." We went through major hardship and everybody did chouba started fixing themselves fixing their ego fixing their bad character traits. Why? To get to Mount Sai. Why mount Mount Sai? So we get Torah. So the say even if we didn't get the Torah the kindness from Hashem to allow us to fix oursel that was already enough. Why? Because we became good people. We became good people. That was already enough. We were we were not good in Egypt. We were just like the Egyptians and came to Hashem and says, "Why are you going to save these people and kill these people? Both of them are idol worshippers. They're idol worshippers and they're idol worshippers. Why you going to fix them?" Says, "Oh, they're going to get the Torah." And to get to they're going to fix themselves. Meaning explained to us without using the Torah to fix ourselves, it's not Torah. you're not using Torah, it's something else. And that's why it surprises me sometimes to see this in real life, to see people that teach Torah, to see people that claim to know Torah and they could spit out verses to you like it's a computer, but you see how they behave. You see what they say, you see what they do. It's you see yourself mash the prophecy of coming to life. No one says that is ignorant. Knows a lot. Unfortunately, they're using it the wrong way. So, if the Torah is not going to help you fix your mid, it's not Torah because the Torah meaning and the analogy to compare it to is that it's water. Why water? Because water goes to the lowest place just like your ego is supposed to go to the lowest place until it's removed completely in order for you to become a vessel to receive the Torah. So shad is the opportunity for us to actually do this to put this to life. We are meant to be a light unto the nations, not to follow their misguided practices. Remember, every Jew has to remember that he's a Jew and she's a Jew. We don't celebrate non-Jewish holidays, even if they seem harmless. It's a zil disrespect to the Torah and could lead to chalu hashem, desecration of God's name. Stick to our holy Torah and our own holidays. That's the path of a true Jew.