43 - Even Shelaima CH 9 - Directing Your Life - Teffilah (Harav Yitzchak Breitowitz)

okay we're uh still in the middle of peric test so if you remember the last thing we looked at was in C doid and the gro made a very interesting observation that kashma the primary em of is when you though you're standing before the Mel so your dominant emotion is and because is is you have to be with because you need both ideas the idea basically is is a higher Madre than hasem but hasem has to be the foundation otherwise you look at God as my buddy you don't you don't take any responsibility for what you do so the says is the now that itself creates an interesting Inc in congruity in the metaphor because if you look at hasem as the foundation and then you build AEM on that it would stand to reason that you first have to have irem and then you progress to and yet in the you see exactly the opposite is before right so you're first emphasizing ABA by the way the same point is true in ABA I think I've mentioned more than once I man have said it last week too the famous thought of the aam he was of the before the tour who wrote on andas why does every bra switch from is second person you the third person we say blessed you everything came into existence by his word it should have been right so that's called nister third when you talk about a a he uh instead of a you that's called hidden as if the person's not there so he says that is I I feel intimate to God I feel close to God he is a friend he loves me you he is ref is a reference is a certain that's so in every you combine andem but you notice the same pattern that the Ava is first the same way the says and is theama saying the same thing the isem meaning Hashem loves me but I love Hashem because Hashem loves me that's the emotion of love and then we go to so what do you see from here you see from here interesting thing that you have you actually do have have to start with a sense of AEM because if your initial understanding of God is that God is somebody something I got to be scared of I got to be frightened of then God becomes the abusive parent God becomes the abuser and that's the sense I have of my whole life so you have to start off with the notion that Hashem loves you and Hashem takes care of you and then you have to understand how I then have to honor Hashem and serve Hashem and even rever Hashem but AA has to be the foundation so you'll ask me one on that so that explains both the kma that also explains the BR but you'll ask me what about the we say every day it's a in M the beginning of true wisdom isem hasem has to be the beginning of wisdom that's true you can't have you have but you need the a as a PR meaning to say I need to absorb and then I'm ready to have through say it doesn't sayous of the person as a little child doesn't have yet but it has to start with AA it has to start with AA that's the same way a parent has to build a relationship with a child a parent has to start the relationship with love and then he should learn about respect learn about awe learn about reverence keep it of the aim but without Ava the parent is just perceived as this you know arbitrary monster in some way scary monster that's not how you raise a child you don't raise a child to be scared of their father and mother but there has to be respect there has to be reverence but that the asight of that has to be built on love so this is what I think you see from the gr and from the Abu and the like okay so now we have a new thing which is again there's not much of aish here the gra seems to be just restating what the gar itself says that it's really hez of the gar itself right the mishna in talks about what are called the this is not the this is earlier than that obviously the early generations of Pious ones it's interesting we don't really have any names here we don't know who they were but there was a group of great great sikim who were later called ah the early and they would spend three hours for every they would prepare themselves an hour they would dve in an hour and then they would have post toila meditation for an hour they did this for Shak Min although it's interesting it's hard to understand exactly because Min is obviously uh much much shorter than than shakas me if it took an hour from M then Shak should have taken two hours you know what's exactly the unless you say this unless you say this is possible when it says there was an hour means and when it says they had an hour before that is what we might call and for M they had their own meditation like mus in other words the reason why the middle hour is an hour for all three is because the middle hour is only a reference toon so M the the hour of Shak beforehand was the hour of was for an hour and for Maru the same thing the hour afterwards the same thing in the morning you have more stuff to say but whatever it would be they would be masim but the point I'm making is that the middle hour is not the whole prayer service the middle hour is Shon itself and for that they were the same Shak and and Aris so it turns out that they spent a total of n hours a day in so nine hours a day in so that severely cuts into your learning time right so how is it so the says but really really he's really paring the says this the AR that they had in caused the Tyra to be preserved in them and to be blessed in them because after all is not it is that enables me to be connected to AES and to absorb the T and therefore you will accomplish more frankly in less time now the say it's interesting the Stifler said that about something differenter said that about you know a guy complain to him he got married and his wife has wants him to do this he wants him to do that he says b Torah what's going on I mean I got to learn okay so the stier told him that every time you do you're emulating the maid of Hashem so you will have aay so you will accomplish in one hour what it would have taken you 3 hours so he said you're not going to lose by it especially to your wife because even if your wife takes up two hours of your time and you only have an hour instead of three hours thead is you'll do in the hour but it would have taken you three hours so laa it'll all come out the same if not greater uh one story I love it's a different story but it's also about the idea a guy complained to him this is a already because at least the first guy at least said it's B Tor okay this guy said you know my wife asked me to take out the garbage and everything else but you know AA it's Noto is supposed to already this this is not a sympathetic character but he says it's not you know that it doesn't pass that I should do it said to him he says you know you're right like you shouldn't be doing these things so the guy walks away feeling yeah you know yeah you know so the next morning at 6:30 in the morning there's a knock at his door he's about to go to shakas he opens door there is there so he says it's an honor to rashba but is there an emergency is there something I can do he says yeah yeah I was thinking it's not coved diic for you to take out the garbage so I I came to take it out for you so just give it give it to me and I I will take it I will take it out and I think the guy got the got the message uh at that at that at that particular point but this is the idea but but again but the G is not talking about that here the is talking about and he says that the of is such that your the Tyra will remain when you in you and it'll be blessed within you and you should never feel that the Z that you're is somehow detrimental to your learning it'll always be the other way around that is how your learning will be M and yet in spite of that in the very next paragraph the um the Evan schamer brings another quotation that does say this is within limits and the limits are pretty broad but he says you shouldn't spend more than three hours a day on daving because see although they spent nine hours but keep in mind in some ways the pre and the post could have involved learning that could have been their so the was one hour for each so the gr says we see from here that uh as wonderful asila is there can be a little bit of too much of a good thing too much of a wonderful thing he says one should not D in more than three hours a day okay I think for most of us uh that's a workable that's a workable thing but you know sometimes some people are even more than that because there is a in because daving will give you braa in your learning but you still have to learn right so if I were to Simply let's say I would simply ding the whole day that's not going to put the gor in my head right I still have to have to learn it reminds me a little bit at the was 1954 so people were giving his f one of the that the was a and that's why he became what he became that all of theid the mishna says or the BR really in the six when you learn Tyra for the sake of you have so many became what he became because he learned right that I mean that's right that's true the brisar didn't like it the brisar said no no this is the wrong thing to say he says what's the what's the wrong thing to say it's 100% sure he says because when you start saying you're trying to make a point that the difference between me and the K is I learn and he learned he learns lishma I wasn't to be says say you know you don't have to get to lishma the difference is he learned and you don't meaning to say it's not it's not simply the oh the learns at a super level of he says there's such a thing as even the are putting in the time you don't have to say the says that's kind of almost bris says that's almost giving yourself an excuse he say well I learn and KES learns and we're kind of the same on that level but he has extra madrea of LMA he says no he has the extra madrea of just learning no just the time itself so that's what the is saying as beautiful as is one needs to put a certain a certain on it and he says the she is presumably his is from you'll ask me but had nine hours so that's what I'm saying it could be the before and the after work component it's really only the middle thing that didn't have materal components and that would be the shal okay now in v and Zion we have two paragraphs or two sentences each of them begins with the the most important part OFA is we have an A and then another minor different place different place in the Eva you think they're all I mean these are from different parts of the gr's writings uh B so a lb elem the most important thing you are accomplishing in your govering is to break your GAA break your arrogance so you will return to Hashem B chuba this is very very interesting we would think the most important thing I'm accomplishing with my is to get whatever I'm asking for but that's a big mistake sometimes we get it sometimes we don't if I don't get it let even I I pray for something good someone should have I don't get it is my prayer wasted is my prayer useless it hasn't done anything well it hasn't done anything in the sense of the specific thing you're asking for but that may not be the purpose of your the purpose of your the says is is to break our GAA break our arrogance making us realize that everything we have in life is from Hashem and without Hashem we have nothing a human being is very prone to the attitude as the tah itself warns us it is my strength and my ability that gave me my success in life again logically based on appearances it often seems to work that way my skill my knowledge whatever it would be is the great reminder that without a nothing happens nothing happens I break my GAA this is actually one of the reason reasons why is so difficult because in learning learning is difficult too of course learning is difficult but in learning there can often be a certain element of ego involved you know I have a good s i can shlug you up you know whatever it is there's a certain egotism I mean if especially if a person's good in learning so they kind of know it's just another Avenue of competitiveness right some people will be competitive in uh Wall Streets and some will be competitive in the B of so learning if you're I mean not everybody is naturally good but a person that's good in learning it can be a big ego stroker it's not with a person is proud of how much again even though Lisa people sometimes have those feelings but in a way it's not possible I'm I'm a b GA I have GAA over how good Mya is that's not because by definition is to be the to eradicate your ego to recognize that without without Hashem you're nothing that's a very hard thing for a person to do it's very hard for a person to be M his ego his says jokingly but I think there some mem do it says in the not like the rest says three hours it would be a good thing if a guy would di in all day so the says D all day all right with the three hours the gar answers you know they'll learn the rest of the time the Torah will be within them you D the whole day when are you going to learn what does that mean so says we find that a person has the strongest yat to learn during ding meaning when I'm when I'm not daving you know I'd rather read the paper eat breakfast take a nap I don't I don't always have a Yates or H I got to learn but Punk by daving all of a sudden I got I got to look at a safer I got to pull it off says says you know if you want to get people to learn make them DAV all day if you make them DAV all day they'll do a lot of learning because that's the of learning so what's the so when that's when they have the it goes back to Ego because ding is to be that's very hard for me so I got to do something that maybe builds me up a little bit and and and the like right so this is U so this is the iar idea of to be and when you're sh your GA that brings you to Chua because then you realize how much you have to fix how much you need to repair things so that's step number one elem and where's this from this is from Mish peric Tes in mishle it's taken from the gr mishle now then there's another statement that's taken from the tun zoa so again the different places right the takes from all the different of the so this is already once again not necessarily aish of the but it's well known it's an obvious phenomenon that all of our in Theon are they're not so when we pray forua we say a knew Hashem because I'm not just praying for myself I am praying for cl Isel and I want to be n in the bras of Cl Isel which by the way is another answer to a person a person says my prayers were not answered well how do you know your prayers were not answered if your prayers on behalf of clra then maybe it wasn't answered for this one but you know who knows what it may have been answered for somebody uh you know in a different country or whatever it would be because we pray for CLA Israel we don't pray for ourselves only now these are the two eusar is to be sh and is Le right it shouldn't just be for you it should be for cl Israel as a whole and these again are very important youus now Lisa we do have Hally the ability to incorporate in the amid private private Bas some do it in in each so Ino they'll put in a for specific others say it's better to do it in and still others say it's better to do it in El which is the that are after so there different preferences uh basically many post can differentiate between shortterm and long-term if you're doing a short term you can do it in Theon itself but if it's going to be a long term it's better not to be right so you should do it in the of so it may depend on the nature of uh the particular prayer that you're having what Didi one Saidi once said that let's say you're praying uh that your learning would be successful so which should that go into so he said it depends if you're a or you should put it into you're asking God for knowledge if you're a rebi or a MAG she it should be in asking for a good parosa because you don't if you don't come up with a good Shear your job is going to be in Jeopardy so it all depends Ora yeah yeah yeah yeah it's interesting you know that's an interesting point uh we we normally don't look at that for Torah knowledge we look at it as keeping the Torah meaning Inspire us to do CH so we'll keep your Tyra meaning it's not referring so rev Perman I don't know if any of you know R per Perman was the longtime rebi and Mas he's not well he has health problems he's been struggling with but uh very very person who was Mas on so manyan uh so he once recounted uh he once recounted that he was sitting in the miror base medish Friday afternoon and for some [Music] reason uh came in the middle of the afternoon and was for whatever the reason so was deaf or not de but a very very hard of hearing and you know when you're heart of hearing you talk very loud because you don't hear your voice so he would DAV fairly loud as well because you know he didn't hear himself so Perman was sitting he was the only guy in the B Med and Perman remembered when when he when said asking God for knowledge of Torah he took five minutes in that and the rest of took two minutes meaning was longer than the then he di real real quick you know after that because he was in the aspect of that was most to him the idea of Torah knowledge by the way this idea that a deaf person doesn't hear very well I have a little Minds with the stier I was Z to meet the styler uh Rim K's father uh when I was growing up Rim kineski was the son of the styler now we say he's the father of keski but anyway um so the Stifler was profoundly uh very very hearing impaired virtually deaf so when You' come to him you'd actually write down things and he would answer them so I remember I had an appointment or whatever I was going to see him after midnight like 12:30 so I come in and he's a very old man it was not so so much before his death and he's sitting there falling asleep and he has a table filled with all sorts of s and I wrote something down and I I said I'm not going to wake him I'm just standing there all of a sudden he wakes up with a start and he starts screaming at me I was scared of kid death he starts yelling at me he says he points to like piles of papers he says why do people bother me I'm an old man I'm going to die I want to learn before I I leave this world to bring something TOA and they bring me this and that and that and that they should pray to Hashem do I answer do I can I answer tus only Hashem can answer tus why do they come to me I want to learn in peace he's like yelling at me but he really wasn't yelling at he was just talking to me but he but like scary scary scary so of course I had my piece of paper I'm I'm nodding to you know here's here's my thing and he was very nice actually he you know he answered you know but but you have the appearance that mamish she was screaming when he really wasn't but that's the nature of deaf person doesn't always hear the mice of how we got there is very very interesting they say that he had been draing Ed into the Russian army in World War I and he was on guard Duty uh he had to walk back and forth in a Russian winter and at some point and they gave him special there are two versions of I'm not sure what there are two I'll tell you both versions the aim room the aim room one says that when you're put on guard that the Russian guard who was doing guard Duty would hang up a special winter coat on a tree for the next guard to take so the stier had guard duty Friday night so when he went on guard Duty he saw the coat hanging on the tree but an shabas you're not allowed to take things off a tree it's m so as a result he spent the whole night without a a coat in a freezing Russian winter and I don't know exactly but that affect apparently affected the eardrum or affected his hearing and the like that's one shot because he didn't take the coat and he was ding that maybe it's m because maybe he was going back and forth and he made well for another minute it's not another minute whatever the whole night he didn't take the coat the other view which actually makes more sense in terms of hearing is that he wore uh you know these Russian hats and like somebody mentioned him there may be shottis in the Hat so he took it off in the middle of the winter and that uh gave him an ear infection so B and uh he uh lost his hearing because of a mes to keep the kadha of chabas the other story is about the stier there are many the styler married the kish's sister uh that's why the they were so close to each other that's why kki was had no children keski was essentially the kish's adopted son who was command keski had two fathers the stier and the Kish uh but the story goes that uh when the made the sh because he had heard of about the greatness of the stier as a b and uh after the stier met with his sister the Kish asked his sister Miriam how'd it go and she said I don't know the guy uh showed up to the house and he fell asleep right away he sat down on the table at the table he fell asleep so the Kish was very upset he calls in the ster and he says you know there a little der in you want to get married you want to establish a bias you can't just fall asleep on on somebody so the styler says I feel so bad I want to ask M what happened was I had to take a 30-hour train trip from where I was to get to vilna and I figured uh oh no I'm sorry what was it what in other words I'm sorry it was like a 10-hour train trip so I figured I would learn for 30 hours and sleep for 10 hours on the train and that way I'd be okay what happened was I was learning for 30 hours when I get on the train coach was filled so I got bumped up to first class now you think that's good but not really because coach in the old European trains were wooden benches first class were very fancy upholstery which which has a Kash of shess so the Stifler says when I was bumped up to first class and the seats were shockness I decided I would have to stand for the whole trip so he says to thees I learned for 30 hours and then I had to stand up for 10 hours as soon as I got to a chair in Vilma as soon as I sat down in a chair I fell asleep what can I do so the styler told his sister explained to M says this is the guy you should marry you know and and the like because it's both that he wouldn't sit and and the and learning you know that's the that's the right uh that's the right person okay um but these are the two things now then in CFT test it says so on one hand is to be forel but what should I ask for in my own doing what should I ask for so listen to this there are two things you should ask Hashem for in your in your one is you should ask hasem to protect us from sin now this is interesting you certainly cannot ask Hashem Hashem make it that I don't sin that doesn't make sense everything is in the hands of Heaven except for your decision to serve that's called Free Will that's called God is not going to stop me from sinning that's I remember when I was inel so at the beginning of every we would give him shalom them and he would always say like so are you going to learn good are you going to learn well this month so we would answer with the religious answer hasem we will learn well and he would say what do you mean if Hashem wants you'll learn well Hashem certainly wants you to learn well Hashem doesn't want you to learn well it's not up to God it's up to you it's not IM hasem I will learn well it's I will learn one because hashem's ruton is always there but he's not going to interfere with our so if that's the case what does it mean to pray to God that he should protect us from sin the answer is this I come to Hashem and I Proclaim with sincerity and Hashem knows if I'm sincere that I want to serve you I want to do Mitzvah but things happen in my life that make me weak things happen in my life that I'm not always able at least at this My Level to withstand them so I ask KES to try to keep those experience you're not asking hasm to stop me from sinning but you're asking Hashem to protect you from those experiences that might tempt you in many ways and that is a gift will sometimes give you meaning will give you from by not uh by not exposing you to things that would be very very negative to there's a certain Shamir like this is what they say you know um if you remember the story about rebi mayor right Reby mayor thear said had enemies who were making his life miserable we're not sure the nature of this so he was going to doin that they should die so his very wise wife brya said he shouldn't do that he should you don't pray for rim to die you pray for rim to do Chua so they're no longer rim and she Dar in the it says in sins should be destroyed from the earth and then there will not be R it does not say it does not say Sinners should be destroyed it says so brya the gar seems to say BR is right you pray that the Russia should do CH so how can I pray that a Russia should do chuva doing Chua is totally what I pray that hasem should make a Russia do Chua if the Russia wants he'll do Tru if he doesn't want he won't do Tru what are you praying to hasem so the Mas has a bles by aasha how is it to be now you may ask mha well what about bring us back to the it's really the same thing I'm praying should inspire me to do Chua so Rebel Yos says very P it maybe based Onish that it's a de p hasem is not going to make you do chuva that's totally up to you if you want you'll do it if you don't want you won't do it but the thing is there are many things that can happen to me in my life people that I meet experiences that I have that if I have one type of experience I'll be inspired to do chuva and if I have another type of experience I I'll go the other way so when I pray that a Russia should do chuva I'm not praying that God should make the Russia do Chua I'm praying that Hashem should put experiences into this person's life that b would Inspire him to make positive changes which maybe he'll do maybe he won't that's up to him but give him the it's really a mystery in many many ways you know we have let's say we have all these J groups everybody comes all the time and as many people as come uh many more are left behind and didn't come you already have people that go to the same College maybe they've known each other since first grade it's a bit of a mystery what makes one person become a balua become a religious Jew and what makes another person not follow that path why is it so I mean basically same background same type of family Eli but this guy met so and so at the cotel you know then you ask him well why did hasem I don't I'm I'm not giving any answer well why did Hashem allow this guy to meet this somebody and this guy didn't meet that somebody and if this guy would have met that somebody he would have been the same place I no idea I mean some people say it may go back to theas of a great great great Bubby great grandmother 200 years ago before that there are that are yes in various ways but this is the point Rebel yashab is making you can't pray directly that Hashem will make a Russ because but you can pray that Hashem should expose the person to the in that are the because that is one of the great mysteries in life why do some people get that hirus and some people don't now if both people have the same exposure and one chooses one doesn't choose that's not AEM that's that's but I'm raising a a different question I'm not raising both both people are there and one is inspired that's but I'm raising how come some guy gets the experience and some guy doesn't get the experience how do you explain that so this is what the gr is saying the gr is basically saying that we have to pray for both the positive and the negative Hashem keep me away from the negative experiences that drag me down and the other way expose me to the experiences that will lift me up in other words negative and positive keep me away from that which is and give me the for the things that are a person needs it a person needs it because the world is a well it's physically dangerous that that we know but it's spiritually a very dangerous place a person could be dragged in all sorts of directions all the time and you need Divine protection you need for those things and here once again he offers a very nice ining at the end of so what do we say May It Be Your Will hasem that we will observe your laws in this world and we should be so we should keep your laws in this world and we should be so here's how thean is interpreting it the word nishar is always a Los nishar to observe negative commandments so that means give us a life where we're not tempted to violate the negatives and get geh and give us a life where we are exposed to those things that we could be to in other words these two ideas are built into the end of and as I say this is not overriding B uh this is simply give us a life of those experiences and once again the way that is answered is by your remember the that's a key to everything the pathway that you desire to walk on is the pathway that Hashem will lead you on is like a taxi driver you go into a cat the taxi driver says where do you want to go not always I've had drivers then whatever but you just the other day but uh usually the C where you want to go is where he'll take you soem says where you want to go you want a life of kadus you want a life of R you want a life of growth I'll give you that life you want a different type of Life I'll give you that life too I will give you what you want so therefore when you really mean to God this is the life I want that doesn't mean you're not going to have nus I mean nus there will always be but but as a general type of life with many exceptions it'll be a life that will move in the direction that you want it to go see and that's what the gr says is AR F so AR f is not for directly for parasa for wealth for all the other things a r f is we should have a life where we're not tempted to leave hashem's ways and a life where we are tempted we are encouraged we are inspired to serve KES in those positive positive ways okay let's look at one or two more so this is an interesting Kish what is the marcker of this again T so this is Mystical we know that on chabas one of the things we get on chabus is called Nish now what is Nish so most people translate it an extra Soul as if you have one soul and on shabas you have two Souls sounds a little bit schizophrenic I would suggest just as a matter of translation the translation of n sah should not be an extra Soul it should be an enhanced soul that your soul gets an enhanced an enlarged capacity to be connected to a so it's not like two things in me but rather my Nish grows bigger it's able to absorb more Ras right that's the now that doesn't mean you'll you'll absorb it like anything else uh you you got to then work on it you got to learn you got to do things but you have a greater capacity for r on chabas we know that at the end of shabas my Nisha shrinks again I lose that capacity and I feel weak I feel faint I feel a little depressed and that is the m of why we have to kind of revive me because I'm weak and I'm losing that capacity the sadness even alone that's called n SH now it's interesting rash in says that the of chab is why you're able to eat and drink more in chabas you have a capacity of because you have so people ask the question that kind of trivializes it now you're telling me that the Godless of the is I could eat more because I have a bigger appetite on chabas I mean that's all it is so tell us that maybe Rashi is moram that there's something called soul food uh when I say soul food I don't mean like in Harlem watermelon Fried Chicken collared greens whatever but soul food is this it says by Matra it says by Matra that the zik is were gazing at a vision of the sh and they ate and they drank and the r says in the that's a for because just as the body eats physical food the soul has food the food of the soul is to connect with the so a and is the fruit of the Nish so so on means right that's the Soul Food the food of the soul in fact the kusari says a beautiful thing the G does not bring it here that we should look at the three Tas of the day as the three meals of the Soul just as CL the person eats three times a day although it's interesting time of the that wasn't necessarily so but the Kari seems to assume that that was the universal thing of three meals a day so our soul has to be fed three times a day actually actually maybe does because so actually actually corresponds the main meal was morning and big afternoon so that's Shak but that became a third meal so because of this the K says which for many people is is a hard part of the day you know we we we stop what we're doing we have to dve in but we don't necessarily enjoy it he saysa should be that most enjoyable part of your day it is the food of your Nish so I would add on the Ker's mhall the following idea I think I thing it's a legitimate extension you know a person let's assume a person lives only on junk food all you eat are potato chips you don't eat any potato chips and Coca-Cola you're not going to die meaning that's well I you may die of the sugar and the fat but but but in terms of starvation you will not die of starvation even junk food can keep you alive but the quality of your life is not going to be very good so if we accept the analogy that feli are the meal of the Soul then just as there's a a good meal and a junk food meal there's a good and a junk food now a junk fooder will still keep you alive meaning better to DAV junk food than not to DAV if I don't DAV I'm starving my soul if I D without Cabana I'm at least feeding myself orbe it junk food but if you want to be healthy you have to have healthy food you want to be healthy in Ras you have to have healthy healthy so he says the K says should be joyous should be the best part of the day I get this private audience even though everyone else is doing it too but I get my private audience with tremendous thing one can't imagine used to say it's an interesting if Hashem would not have commanded us to dve him it would have been user what type of how dare how dare a person think they could go to and ask for what he wants it's a it would have been user had hasem not told us this is what I want you to do is is is is a okay so going back to the gr here so so that's the idea of shabas so the gro fascinating every day that we D in mus we have a so that includes shabis that includes y that includes and that even includes Roes you have a you say of course so why don't we have B have I don't know you tell me when I lose the I I don't know I don't know Hally how this works but the says there is a every day that has mus and he defines kind of similar to what I said but he says it in a slightly different way you get an additional augmentation of youres augmentation of my R I didn't know I Hades to begin with so here I have to connect something else the says in Mish the says every person hases every person has R LMI we don't always access it because we get distracted it's like it's like static you know you receive a certain radio signal but if other activity is going on it throws everything off right that's why uh with some exaggeration that's why the airplanes always announce not allowed to have your cell phones or whatever because they're afraid although it's not likely they're afraid that uh what you'll be receiving will interfere with the messages they need to receive static well in is for sure they're static there ises within you that in which you know the rats hasem you know what you have to do you know where you need to go but I can't always access it because there are too many other messages going on at the same time and I can't tell which is the right one which is the wrong one but there actually is and says the on the day where there's you have a in that so that actually means a person can reach certain levels that they might not be able to reach the rest of the time I believe they say that one of the ways you can access youres is if you sit and you learn for two hours straight with no interruption this is what they think they bring down let's say a person has a dilemma in life a decision you got to make a decision who to marry should I leave Yeshiva what Yeshiva whatever it is you got to make a decision and I'm confused there are different Miku Miku says sit and learn T anything in t learn for two hours with no interruption and then whatever thought falls into your head after the two hours is from youres because the two hours cleans you out it gets rid of the static it gets rid of all of the junk messages and then what comes to you is the clarity of thees that the says every person actually actually has okay so that's something to think about now it does have to be two hours without interruption uh you know that that's harder than than than you might think you know it's um I heard from person that to learn 15 minutes without interruption is not it's not the easiest thing you know the Kish writes somewhere about what it's like and I I've never had this experience what it's like to learn 12 hours without interruption and he really describes it in other like terms M she says you can't imagine you know you're a Mal in ganen and he and he builds upon it he says uh first of all the first three hours you haven't even started yet it takes three hours to kind of enter this other realm and then you go from madrea to madrea to madrea he says once you've touched that madrea he says you're almost like addicted you can't you can't you can't stop that's what it is like you know you're like the leaves the body that's an experience that very very even very very very very few are to that type of of connection to how could you do 12 hours with right 12 hours stra um yeah is it um yeah be a little hard maybe after Mar yeah depends if you do most of your learning at night it might be like if you have from um I have to work it out let me let me let me figure it out maybe maybe the is going with the that's is not called a break because the girl said maybe it's that that way but I thinkir created 10 hours I I think he created a special kab where you learn 10 hours straight um yeah okay all right um okay maybe we'll stop here and you all have a good job and uh I guess my rone I heard this year is uh is closed so we go to shim popular this yeah yeah no I'm wondering I I I don't know I I haven't looked into it but I've always wondered I don't know if there's any Shas between shimad and like somebody said as a joke well uh shimad and shim shim shim has the same GATRA you don't need same same name it's the same name so maybe it's a but I don't know if be them there's any of but even with it's so fascinating that some people say there's a t in the because the that is from where it says re shim but in the earlier manuscripts it doesn't say it says which means the day that he revealed the Z which is true also and in later additions the got eliminated so without the it's so the whole you say that this was a yard site may have been based on a and how the AR were were printed but they do askha thees Asha that the stopped dying what's the Sim there were nobody left they all died I mean there was no one left to die so why is it a simp right there are different terum for this but um uhar the RAR says a fascinating teror he says the gazer that the 24,000 students of rebika were to die was also with gazer that rabi yiva was to die with them he did die later and when ler came and the Maga stopped and RAB AA didn't die so the Sim was that RAB AKA was not n in the gazer and that's very important because that allowed him to beid five T see it's not just reaba lived reaa died was tortured to death but he had time to be the right because he was not in the G had had ra this is what the ra says and the other thing to think about too is a wonderful thing that imagine Rea struggles for 24 years his his wife lives in poverty for 24 years he finally comes back with such AAL he's not such a young man anymore and everything is destroyed most people would beat San most people would say I did my best Hashem took it away what am I supposed to do and he went back and he started with five people five people he had 24,000 he starts with five it's like after the Holocaust people who are R Yeshiva great jivas started with a few people Ren cther himself started started with a few people so you see the important idea of not giving up the says if you had children when you were young try to have children when you're old you never know where the will come so I remember at Yu so um in the 60s he suffered three bereavements his brother his mother his wife my mom is like three shivas like almost next to each other and you could imagine he was totally totally broken and although he he taught for another 10 years but people who knew him well I did not know him well so he was never the same but at the end of the third Shiva he said a v that I always remember sayses before this world created many other worlds that he destroyed the ferish Israel says that doesn't have to mean other planets it could mean this Earth went through meteorite showers ice ages ferish says that could explain dinosaurs and fossils because they're remnants from the worlds before adish so the question though is why did Hashem create all of these worlds that get destroyed so he says because the aisher wants to teach us a lesson that even if our world gets destroyed we go on and we create a new world we don't give up and that was the history of with theik the Gus the Crusades the Holocaust what's going on even now you don't give up you keep on going and one of the lessons we should think about on is the fact that RAB AA lost everything and he started again he didn't simply say I did my job I'm old I'm ready to retire no I'm going to start again and see what happens and that's a muser that we have to take in life that no matter what happens you don't give up you keep on going so uh in fact the prades actually says that theim is not just that the stopped dying it's it's that Raba began to be in the new that that's the of new beginnings not being May don't allow the setbacks to destroy you okay have a good uh