סוד החירות שבתשובה | אורות התשובה- שיעור 6 | הרב יהושע שפירא

[Singing] [Music] We talked about understanding, that the answer comes from understanding, and we explained understanding a little bit within the personality, which is higher than the responding soul. This is in the simple understanding of the external soul, but it reflects the initial alchemical position before descending into the world with the soul position that is associated with it, with the qualities that are associated with it, and there is freedom in the intellect. The intellect is the place of freedom and joy because all the limitations of the qualities, all the constraints of the definitions, do not yet appear, and it has freedom. Just like when a person looks at a subject, there is freedom to see it from all sides. The intellect is not limited to seeing only one side of the issue. And before we get into that, she has the ability to perceive, but she has something more subtle and profound [snorts of contempt], which is that she has the freedom to examine the issue from all its angles. She is not enslaved to one girl. If I like something or reject something, then I am enslaved to this movement. But if I look at something, then I have the freedom to look this way or that way. I do n't have the bondage and the prison of being in only one field. Therefore, the answer comes from that world of freedom. That I am blackened by a certain reaction, a certain position, by [snorts of contempt] ah belonging to one look. And as much as this applies to man, it also applies to the entire world. In contrast to the divine abundance that comes from above, the reality of the world is always already built on the foundations of virtues, of goodness, of limitation, the virtue of kindness, the virtue of justice, and the observation of the world that precedes the reality of the world. Divine contemplation is the idea of ​​ the world when it includes all sides of the world in one idea that contains everything that will be from all sides of it. This is a place that precedes bondage and when one returns to it, then there is freedom. Therefore, the doctrine of internality, the doctrine of the secret, says that the answer comes from understanding. Understanding is a continuation of the divine abundance as it is before its descent into the realms of reality, but already the detailed plan of everything without the returns. I have n't gotten into it yet. When you built a house and it had rooms, we talked about the word room, we talked about it in the evening. There are rooms in the house, so you go into one room, you're not in another, and you might even be locked out and not be able to get out, but when you see the plan and you look and maybe we'll move, then you're not enslaved to one room, and you can also move the walls to change the plan. It's on paper, and you have complete freedom of action, and there's no wall that needs to be moved to change the plan. You just put a strip of a wall somewhere else. That's all. So the divine plan, the divine view of the world that includes all the orders of reality and all the boundaries within which the orders of reality operate, is an understanding that liberates. When you return to it from the worlds, from all bondages, you return to the plan. It's like building a house, ah we don't build houses like that today, but we're getting closer and closer to it, a modular house like that that you build it and after that you can go back to the plan and change the plan in the house. Otherwise it's crazy but we said and this is a point we're dealing with that the house looks different as if it was built like that from the beginning [like a scythe] from here on out it looks different as if it was the initial plan. This is the violation. The violation is that the moment the husband breaks then the vows like blood spilling don't exist as if they were never vowed. What kind of freedom of action does a woman have in her vow? So she defined the path of a living being? It's possible. It's impossible. A wall came in a panic and moved the walls. He said to him, "Wall, it's not cold. It's not." So the path opens up and the answer is as if it moves the walls that were planned, placed, erected, fixed and seem unchangeable and the answer changes them. It doesn't change the taste in such a way that the old wall remains and another wall is built and renovated, but it builds in such a way that it is as if it were built from scratch. This is the freedom of action of the understanding of the level of plans. But in this world, the plans that the engineer has on the table and the building that the contractor actually built are irreversible. They go from the plans to the building, but the building cannot go back to the plans and make changes and change the building as if it were built from scratch. Otherwise, there is no such procedure [as a joke]. Reality only goes down, thank you very much. It only goes down. It doesn't go back up. But the answer has come before the world, as we saw in the picture. [Snorting contempt] And the world was created with such a mechanism that you build the house and you can go back to the plans. And now the plans are, in the beginning, how it looks from scratch. No, what now, after the walls, windows, and columns are already in order? But now I'm renovating. This is a quick answer that at least for mistakes, I mean, they are still there, but I can have some room for maneuver. But she understood that this is the answer out of love. So she leaves the house in its current form. [Snorting contempt] Returning to the freedom of The plan shapes the house, and now it is shaped as if it were built like this by an evil person. It was a hindrance because it was understood that this is the plan. There is freedom there. Nothing has been built yet. I am not enslaved to anything. Anything can happen. [snorts of contempt] And anyway, there is also joy there because there is no oppression, no confinement , no prison, everything is free. After wisdom, it is called freedom, it is called joy. And if we compare it to a plan and a building, it tells a story about the world that looks like a building that had some plan in the sky that we don't know. Before the world was created, there was a plan, it was built, and we encounter it only after it was built and are receptive to [the] patterns in which it exists. And that may be something that can be renovated a little, but it certainly cannot be designed from the beginning again. But the answer came before the world. It means that I can go out of all the world's boundaries and return to the pattern of the plan, not the existing pattern, where everything is free, everything is free, and if I want a better building, then that is open to me, I am not receptive to anything that is built. And then reality is as I redesigned it. That it really is a thing, oh, it's more than a miracle, a miracle, that there are the boundaries of reality and what needs to be done is changes. A response is that you are freed from the boundaries of reality at all. Turning water into blood or sea into land is very impressive, it's dramatic, it's the same metaphors with which we became a people, but a response is much deeper than that. Although it can be said that the reality returned in repentance when Israel had to leave Egypt and acts for the sake of the Israeli nation and does not act according to the lofty technical laws, there is such a dimension that the slave girl saw in the sea that the prophet Ezekiel ben Buzi did not see. This is a tool and he punished him, because in fact, through these changes, some divine revelation is missing. The answer is I owe neither water, nor blood, nor sea, nor land, nor death, nor life. If we return to the example, then he who murdered the soul and repented out of love , there are accounts of flesh and blood. In a lower court, this is not taken into account [as a punishment], but from the perspective of God, a higher court, then, are opposites to rights. How do you turn such opposites into rights? This is really a question of what kind of answer is needed from the Lord, of course, when there is a person who is so extreme towards his friend. But the very issue of the answer is the complete freedom to build a building, to build all of reality anew, and from now on it will be as if it were built from the beginning. Otherwise, the entire previous structure will not be present. [Snorting contempt] It is not in reality. It does not interfere with the new plan from proceeding according to its own patterns. It is the understanding of wisdom. This is a completely different level. In wisdom there are no patterns at all. All the organs of the fetus, which is not yet a child, it is not yet born, it is not yet in reality, are built by the mother, not by the father. [As a result] Wisdom is a much higher root, where all the patterns that will come to be are not yet detailed there. It is more than freedom. Freedom is having many options and either I build this way or I build that way. But there is something that precedes the plans. It's like the engineer sits with the plans and says, "Let's put it this way, put it that way," but the homeowner, the homeowners who order the house, they have an idea of ​​ the pleasure that will be inside the house, of the goodness that will be discovered in it, of the space that it will give them, but there is no plan, they don't sit on plans, they dream of building a house, so it may be a little bit detailed, but where exactly will this pipe and this electricity go and where is it not? It doesn't bother them at all now, nor what the exact size of the room will be, but they want to have their own house and they dream of the space where you are, the generality where the dream is, certainly the initial dream, at the beginning, when Mark says, "We want to build a huge villa of our own on one of the farms, the view is amazing." It's already a bit of a plan, but they don't know which farm, what the view is, what the villa will look like, what materials will they be made of, how big the rooms are, no, they don't get into it at all. It's just the idea itself, before he gets the templates now from here, but the house that dreams about the villa, the Holy One, blessed be He, before he designed the world, now you can To say that when you repent, you can go back to the place where the villa is planned differently than the place of a dream about the villa that is not even planned yet is as if it is with him, may God bless him, what do you belong to in this at all, and the outcome of the repentance is that he returns there too and something different happens there. [Snorting contempt] If you return to the dream, it's not that there are patterns that you now need to change, that now there will be different patterns. The dream is still without any patterns at all. And when you go back there, there's nothing that needs to be dismantled to rebuild anyway. But to get there you have to go back to the engineer's desk and then back. So wait, let's go back to the dream. As if there is no home, as if there is no prison. Go back to the dream and from there we will start the whole story over again. So let's read all of this inside because I gave a parable. Now it seems that Rabbi A is giving a parable. This complements this one, but it also explains the Rabbi's words well. Sometimes the rabbi also brings such verses. On the part of the intellect, the answer is that it is freed from all existing patterns and created its virtue, so women are endowed with the rights and by which they lived. why? Because if you completely leave the encumbrance, then all the materials with which you built your current house are now like material in the hands of the builders of another house. It's not that I'm erasing what happened, it's a cycle. I take what was and build other patterns with it. Now if we leave the mechanics of structure for a moment and go a little deeper and talk about the movement of the soul. A man, God forbid, who was merciful and merciful, maliciously desecrated the Sabbath. Then there was a movement of the soul to act in reality against the will of God, blessed be He, at the heart of the Torah, a reminder of the fact in Genesis of the creation of the world. The Sabbath is the core of the Torah and it acts in the heart of reality against the will of God, blessed be He. He has a movement of the soul that causes him to desecrate the Sabbath and to be idle. Now he is returning to the basic patterns and what is he actually changing? What are the walls he is moving? He doesn't move the walls, he just erodes the mental movement that was against God Almighty. And there he does, meaning moving the templates is just an external job. A response from love is that I am so attached to the divine will of the world that all the tendencies of my soul, the structures within my personality that have already come into play in the movement of Nimrod in Hashem, the Merciful, to be depicted, are transformed into a deep dimension of closeness to Hashem and, in turn, the soul of the home, because until now we have spoken about the home as walls and have not spoken about the home in its true essence, which is the home of personalities. There is a world outside, but a world without souls is nothing. The main thing is how souls live in this world. And when the soul, when the personality, from within the rebellion, receives some deep dimension of validity, which is forced to come closer, then Seth and Refuse. Like reconciliation after a fight that causes a deeper rapprochement than the initial closeness. So if you are not only concerned with external structures but also with the inner flow of the soul, then you are a thief. He repents and returns the stolen goods. If he confesses on his own, he is even exempt from theft, returning the theft, but clearly the answer to the question is not only that I return the answer to the theft, but that my love for the thief and my concern for him, that now I feel that he is like my son and I do everything I can out of love for him, because my distance and alienation [snort of contempt] have made me realize how much there is a personality here who is greedy for the theft that I stole and who cares about her pain. It is a response from love in a person for his neighbor. So now I'm much closer. So I returned the stolen goods, so now the walls have moved, the money has moved from me to him. It's not even a hindrance. This is from here to Dad. The material things did n't change either, I didn't give him double, I gave him back what he had. So from now on, whatever is his is with him, until now it was mine. But it is clear from its merit that the mental realm in which I was drawn to his character , his suffering, his pain, his existence, and now I care, is a response of love, I care about him, precisely because I knew him, makes me mobilize for him and mentally draw closer and care for his well-being and good even more . So it's as if the template for our relationship from now on has been rebuilt with the raw materials of distance and alienation that themselves turn into closeness and caring . An example of all this is only for understanding. It is true that repentance, in any form or shape, suffers at its beginning from the weakening of the will of the previous repentance. That means to achieve this I have to give up the templates. I live in a house with mold. It's like deciding that I'm renovating the house, so I had a room and suddenly the workers come and destroy the ceiling. Everything is dust. All the patterns that I was already resting with. Suddenly everything is blurry to me. Everything is dark to me. All my will is weakened. I have no strength. I have no clarity. Regret says that what I wanted, I don't want. So I have an internal battle. What do I want? I wanted the needle now. I don't want it. So it's an internal contradiction. It's a struggle. It creates pain. It creates a war between desires. That's why it's hard to repent. What's the struggle in this? You've already done it. Desire. Now it's completely new. It's not like that desire is still speaking. So that that will [as a force] would not speak, you underwent a transformation. So far he has spoken. A man was in the back pews of the synagogue chatting with his friends during prayer time. Now answer that. [Snorts of contempt] So the desire to chat with a friend during prayer time is gone? No, he has that desire, but he wants it to have a different format. So the tension between this desire and the new pattern of the answer is a drama, it is a great effort, a war with pain. That 's how you regret it, isn't it? So he says, I suffer from a weakening of the will at the beginning because it is a will against a will [as a force] and this is confusion. So what do I really want? I can really muster all my might to want something. I muster all my might to want to chatter in the synagogue. It is unthinkable because I want to make a rude confession. People buy to make a confession, but I am too lazy to chatter. So I cannot find the ability to muster my will in a direction because it constantly clashes with itself. The right foot trips the left foot and vice versa. But when a person increases the desire for good, it is a process. It is not an instant. But the one who can make it possible that in one moment everything will turn upside down on the internal side is the one who understands that in easy there is difficulty. That in difficult requests, you know the Rabbi's opening that the confession is also easy and easy, but also difficult. That requests are easy and easy on the part of the one who can decide in one moment that I do not want all my transgressions. I want to be completely righteous, but putting it into practice is difficult. Please, so I need to push forward so that this weakness begins to heal. How is it that it is weakened? That I have only one desire, just to cling to it. [as a force] And repentance from love is not a desire to cling to the name because an external constraint forces me or a constraint that I will accept punishment or a constraint that this is a reality that is deteriorating before my eyes. The fear of sin, but it is a constraint. Repentance from love is not a constraint. It is that I discovered that the thing I most long for, love, I most long for, is closeness to God and closeness to His Torah and commandments. So the beginning is to clarify what I want. There is this desire and there is the opposite desire. I both love sin and love the decree of God. And as the repentance progresses, love continues to triumph, and until, except that later, it turns into joy and broad-mindedness of the supreme recognition of the reversal of the sins into rights that those raw scumbags serve today as the deep stumbling block that burns for me to be clinging to God under crazy pressure because I keep Him. What is this struggle? We do not lose in the wisdom of the sins that are so common? Let's see more than that. The light of wisdom has never been forced to weaken me from the debt of repentance. Why does it have no patterns? It does not need to dismantle something. It is not in a world that already exists. There are lines, there are frames, and before that is the initial dream, but in order to reach the initial dream, I need to free myself more and more from the patterns, and after that from the plans, and I need to reach a place that is generally the dream that precedes every pattern. Is it possible to reach wisdom without understanding? What do we see here in the section? What is impossible and what do you think is right? It's true that the rabbi thinks it's possible to copy them, that was it. And what do you think about what seems right to you? This is not the usual order, but it is possible. It requires immense freedom to completely free oneself from the need for patterns, to return to a divine dream. Who is this suitable for? Apparently for someone who was there a lot. And although there are both patterns and broken patterns, but because [snorts of contempt] he was there a lot, so he can return to that dream. And the thing is that the answer doesn't take any time at all. At a critical moment, at a critical moment. Changing patterns is a process, it's understanding. Returning to the dream is not a process. But what? A person who is in the molds of this world and all his desires are for the affairs of this world. And his dream is that when he arrives in the afternoon, he will have the big, delicious, crispy schnitzel. So to dream of a world that is all good and Godly is not him. He does not have freedom. So he has to go through a process for someone who has been there a lot. But what? He also has a soul in Amit. So it could be that maybe we should ask Rabbi Barchan about it differently. Let's do a thinking exercise to convince you to release your entrenched patterns a little. Is it possible that Ruben and Shimon will not ascend to wisdom at the same speed through understanding? Of course they will . Could there be even greater speed gaps than you thought a moment ago, and even more? So you think like us. There is no choice. I think so . But there needs to be freedom from patterns. This is if you are bound to patterns, then you have not arrived at the building, so you are free to be with the dream, you cannot with the divine dream. The argument seems to me that as long as you have cells, then it is impossible to truly live the dream. That is true, exactly true. But the answer has such a tremendous wonder. So someone said that the land will not be the land of a Hasidic. He never tasted this dream. He doesn't know what the divine dream is. He has no knowledge of God. He did not delve into the interior. He never encountered the highest taste of the most sublime ideals. There was a Hasidic story, I don't know how to tell it exactly, I have n't dealt with this story in many years, but there was a simple cartman, he did a good deed, so they told him he would receive heaven, so he was very happy. They asked him what heaven was? Says, "Heaven is a place where you have a cart, the wheels are excellent and you have six horses, mighty horses, and the roads [snort of contempt] are completely smooth and you can ride without any restraints. No, it's both. He can't break free from these patterns. Now, really, we all can't break free from the patterns of horses except as we have some kind of knowledge of God that has already developed in us. Otherwise, we are also horses. And the more a person develops in the religion of God, then he has somewhere to return to, he has some inner dream that has already been developed. To what extent can he return to it? When Rabbi Elazar ben Dordia sits and says, "The heavens have reached for mercy," then he has the knowledge of God in him that the heavens are a figure whose upward bend of mercy is meaningful. This must be because he asked for mercy to be asked for him. Right, right, right. This is an even greater miracle. Of course, the heavens can ask for mercy in full, but what greatness is the knowledge of God that he understands that the hills and the mountains and the hills tell him that they are busy with their own things, they cannot pray for him. That is, truly, all A thing is attached to God and has the power of tefillin for God, but also everything needs to find the place where it prays, precisely according to what the Holy One, blessed be He, sent it and who did He send to pray for Rabbi Elazar ben Dordia? Rabbi Elazar ben Dordia. So he put his head between his two hands, asking for mercy for himself. Now, did Rabbi Elazar ben Dordia say this legend or was this legend told about him ? It is not clear that he did not write it. Is this [a story] like this is how things were? He turned to heaven and apparently not. But does it tell something from the depths of his personality that there is some knowledge of God [a story] that erupted, and all his bondage to sin was because he had tremendous powers of knowledge, right? This is the man, and when it turned around, he had the powers of the dwellings of God's knowledge that were suddenly taken away, but there are charioteers whose entire knowledge is horses running fast on smooth roads, and we are probably horses running on roads in order to reach such freedom of wisdom, so it needs a spatial The knowledge of the great God that is in the roots of the soul is present in everyone, and therefore it is not that we do not have a quality gift for it, so we need to understand that it is to ascend to very high and transcendental heights, and with all the distance in which there is also belonging, so more than that comes the light of wisdom that will never make you weaken through the pain of regret, why, because regret is belonging to patterns, so you need to free yourself from patterns in order to engage in new, pure, and pure patterns, but here you are not dealing with construction at all. He already finds the rights to be fast, as is true today. In fact, he is based on the fact that we have already transformed the patterns into a response from love, which is the simple order that can happen very quickly, but it must go through this, that suddenly all the raw materials are, it is not that there are no raw materials, it is not that a person regains wisdom, so he cancels his reality, he cancels the detailed plans, and everything begins as if nothing had ever happened, it is not, it is not, so more precisely, what we said yesterday, that there is a hindrance from here to the Father, and there is a hindrance to a region that is only from here to the Father, too. To interfere to interfere to interfere is not to interfere to interfere from here to the father as well it is written what is written like that the sick are right right right like- minded only yesterday no we did not need it so it interferes not interferes from here why so it is not that I was not born as if I was not created because I was not planned in detail and I only return to the dream no the dream had passed into plans passed into reality and now I am freed after there was reality he returns to the taste of the dream so I return to the taste that all the materials of the G are already used for the original dream so it won anyway because it is after they have turned over he already finds the rights show as true today and the name of the Lord appears in it as its mischievous joy the beginning and not a speck of shame and arrogance I have nothing to be ashamed of everything has already turned into rights that are upper levels their vices there we brought it a taste a little let the waves fall huge huge huge world because there is a lesson here to how much the answer with the mechanism that is there in advance that everything that is built can all freedoms to turn over anew he can do it in a way that is Freed from all the oppression, with all the sorrow of the tension between the desire that has already been fulfilled and the desire that wants to change until it manages to transform all the raw materials of the soul and it is already all in joy because everything already serves the supreme dream. I was freed from all the need of the process and no oppression of happiness and coldness that has already been dissolved. Everything is initially to the emergence of spiritual understanding and the righteous. Let's return to Rabbi Elazar ben Dordia. So all the requests, ask for mercy. He put his hands there and his soul ignited. It still understood that he ignited everything and said, "Bless you, Rabbi Elazar ben Cousin, you are destined for the next world. This is already the revelation of wisdom. This is what a supreme taste and he has earned us that we all call him Rabbi. He is our Rebbe. Our Rebbe. Yes, to interfere. To interfere from here to the Father. But the voice actually tells us that such a figure has appeared in the world. What a dream is this? All transgressions can be reversed to the point that in one moment, we pass through the understanding on some intense path that is unparalleled. Fast and unparalleled, but it passes through all the stations of the patterns of heaven and earth. All the patterns are parents and hills and he turns into a hindrance Rabbi taught the greatness of the virtue of repentance, he is granted and the next world If a person after his understanding is granted such a transformation of Rabbi El- Ozair ben Dordia until something inside him happens Blessed are you Rabbi Ploeni that you are a son of the next world then he has already reached the level of wisdom This is what the Rabbi says There we learned it yesterday afternoon There is no soul comes out A sacred song says Dar in life Elijah who forgives all sins Lives no longer shame no distress This is already forgiveness The doctor to the contents of the halwa The Redeemer [Kahkhag] The ointment of my life that enriches kindness and mercy Who satisfies with goodness Your father This is all this You are a son of the next world Be renewed as an angel I will shine on you Now you arrive as a son of the next world anew What a spark of this is in every repentance The more we study it the more the soul becomes more personal The more it is cooked That this spark [Kahkhag] expanded within us at the time of repentance. But what we learned from this is that repentance is truly freedom from all the mechanisms and patterns of this world that were predicted in advance With the ability to change Not only From the engineer's desk but also from the dreamer of dreams that precedes the engineer Life, a life that is good, some of us are destined for fate ลลล [poetry] [singing] [music]